All day Monday, August 17, cable-TV junkies like THE SCRAPBOOK heard White House leaks about "The Speech." While the president was being grilled by Kenneth Starr and his prosecutors, White House officials were working the phones hyping the soon-to-be-delivered, long-awaited Clinton apology. Chief of staff Erskine Bowles, we were told, was busy briefing senior congressional Democrats about the imminent presidential mea culpa. Tim Russert reported what his White House sources were telling him: namely, that senior adviser Paul Begala was tap, tap, tapping away on a speech whose essence would be the "three C's": candor, contrition, and closure.
This speech was, of course, never given. But the so-called "Begala speech" actually did exist in draft form and was presented to (and rejected by) the president. THE SCRAPBOOK has obtained a copy:
My fellow Americans:
No one who is not in my position can understand fully the remorse I feel today. Since I was very young, I've had a profound reverence for this office I hold. I've been honored that you, the people, have entrusted it to me. I am proud of what we have accomplished together.
But in this case, I have fallen short of what you should expect from a President. I have failed my own religious faith and values. I have let too many people down. I take full responsibility for my actions -- for hurting my wife and daughter, for hurting Monica Lewinsky, for hurting friends and staff, and for hurting the country I love. None of this ever should have happened.
I never should have had any sexual contact with Monica Lewinsky. But I did. I should have acknowledged that I was wrong months ago. But I didn't. I thought I was shielding my family, but I know that in the end, for Hillary and Chelsea, delay has only brought more pain. Their forgiveness and love, expressed so often as we sat alone together this weekend, means far more than I can ever say.
What I did was wrong -- and there was no excuse for it. I do want to assure you, as I told the Grand Jury under oath, that I did nothing to obstruct this investigation.
Finally, I also want to apologize to all of you, my fellow citizens. I hope you can find it in your heart to accept that apology. I pledge to you that I will make every effort of mind and spirit to earn your confidence again, to be worthy of this office, and to finish the work in which we have made such remarkable progress for the past six years.
God bless you and goodnight.
What's interesting about this draft is what it tells us about Bill Clinton. The entire Washington establishment, most of Congress, and his top political advisers imagined the president could be prevailed upon to speak these words. He choked on them.